8th of March.. My birthday

Birthday?? what is birthday?? birthday to me is a day where i only wish to spend with the girl i love most.. I haven't been celebraing birthday for ages, the last celebration i could recall was my 12th birthday.. i spend my last 2 birthday working, probably some will feel that i'm silly even to work on my birthday, but i'm glad that i could spend 'the' day with the girl i love most then..

This year, was my worst birthday ever.. although my pal did spend the day with me, but its not exactly what i wanted it to be.. i feel lonely eventhough i'm not alone.. when i see couple passes by, my loneliness increase drastically, just like i'm alone in a deserted place, with my empty shell still accompanying my friends.. how i wish that some1 will fill the empty space in my heart, so that i would not be lefted out on that deserted place.. i wish there's some1 walking side by side with me, holding hands, exchanging kisses, and unbreakable love..

sometime i'll ask myself, 'Am i that poor?' as i see those couple walking by holding hands.. and i'll ask myself, 'Where is she? where is the other part of me?'.. i don't need birthday cake, nither expensive gift.. all i need is only my love will spend this day with me..

i'm listening to jay chao & landy's - zhu wo sheng ri kuai le.. every lyric, every melody, is like describing me...